Sunday, December 9, 2012

No more running on empty

You know, one thing I know about life is that all of us are too busy all the time.  Have you noticed this? We are behind at work, there are always things to clean at home, errands to run...and I never quite feel I am "caught up".  This state of constant "running around" has left me with this nagging feeling of "I'm never going to get caught up!" that pervades my thinking every day...it leaves a shadow over me.  It's exhausting feeling behind schedule all the time.

It occurred to me over the last few days that operating in this deficit model ("I'll never get it all done...I wish I were better at...) is going to wear me down and completely sap the joy out of my life.  I have vowed to shift my thinking...no more "I'm running behind" and more "Look how far I've run!"

When I think of the last few weeks, I have had some wonderful things happen in my classroom...those small moments where I know a child discovered something new or felt a sense of accomplishment or got through a struggle.  I, personally, have learned so much technology THAT I TAUGHT MYSELF that I certainly shouldn't think about how much more I should have taught the students or how much MORE technology I need to learn!  Instead, I am going to let myself simply be excited that there is more out there for me for me to tackle...and I'll get to it when I can.

What triggered this for me?  Oddly enough, an article I read from Twitter about teaching writing!  I'd love for you all to take a look at it...it inspired me as both a blogger and a teacher about what writing is all about--and what writing is not.  I know I use too many ellipses...you may have noticed this as well...and I put too many things in quotation marks..and I don't do any prewriting (probably why my posts aren't always to the point)...and I probably haven't changed the world with a single thing I've written here.  But I have been writing from the heart and enjoying it...and there isn't a single 5 paragraph essay among them.  If you want something to think about--check it out!  Have a wonderful Sunday, everyone.

"I'm not a good writer" article

19 comments:

  1. Interesting article. I grew up feeling I had to be the best at everything. I don't think my mom meant to instill this in me (and my sister) but somehow it happened and we became obsessed with perfection - in writing and in all subjects as a matter of fact. I used to feel physically sick when results were given out for exams - and when I was in school teachers would hand back papers starting at the bottom (with a comment thrown in for good measure!) and work their way to the top of the class. It was awful! I got over this feeling of needing to be the best when I went to school in Canada - and realized categorically that there were a LOT of people a LOT smarter than me! It was very good for me. I've found as a teacher that I'm a bit like my mom. I want my kids to do their absolute best and sometimes I come down too hard on them - I don't just let them be children and enjoy the process of learning. My blog helps me by making me find the good things in school - the successes, the great writing and art and wonderful things we are doing - and celebrate them. It makes me a better teacher, I think.
    Your writing from the heart is wonderful too - and your children are very blessed to have you as a teacher :)

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    1. Thanks so much for sharing...I think a lot of us who have found our place in education have some of those "perfectionistic" tendencies--don't you? :)

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  5. I totally identify with how you were feeling about never being caught up and I like your take on it. I am your newest follower and entered your giveaway! fun!

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    1. Thank you and welcome to my blog! I hope you find your way back often!

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  10. I now follow your blog and am so pleased to have found it. Fourth grade is the best by far!!

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    1. Thanks, Louise! I am glad you found me! I have to agree...I'm pretty partial to 4th!

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